I Dont/Wont Remember Today, So I Write It Down.

My horoscope today says

July 22, 2007

Caution is an important ingredient in any partnership, and today that is doubly so.

Some temptations should be yielded to -- especially if you sense it's a necessity in the making. What's the difference? Allure isn't detrimental to your life, but it can be life changing.


My friends' horoscope says

July 22, 2007
If you get your feelings hurt today, it's important not to retaliate too quickly.

Money matters can make personal interactions unnecessarily complicated. Don't keep this issue on a slow burn. It's time to step up and get things out in the open so you and your peeps can enjoy life.

Note to self:

Too blurry to make notes.

Went to work as usual, feeling deprived, the only place I feel where I really belong is in my dreams. Met a few people there, most of them are dead, at least they're friendly, most of them.

So as I said, went to work to find myself in a room with radio drama actors and actresses having their rehearsal.

After work, spent 15 minutes in hesitation thinking, should I attend Mr. Syadris' wedding in Chandek Kura or not. I went and drove in semi-concious state of mind in the rain. Ms. Halina once said she actually drove from her work place to Kuah without having any memory of doing so. I guess that happened to me today.

I said hi, makan and left without saying goodbye.

On the way back, I burned my x-zone (that'll be my crotch) when I dropped my ciggy and almost swerved my car into a truck. But it's OK as it happened right infront of the hospital.

And the best part of the day, as soon as I reached my home, closed the door, stripped, took 3 sleeping pills and ZZZzzzZZZZzzzzZZZZzzz.... until...

(Rock Guitar Solo)
Imagine me and you,
I doI think about you day and night,
it's only right
To think about the girl you love and hold her tight
So happy together

If I should call you up, invest a dime
And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be, so very fine
So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life

My new ringtone la...

The phone rang at 0037hrs, I woke up and almost threw the phone out of my open window.

Usually I'll be pissed off when people called me after 10pm. Extremely pissed if the call was made without any real reason(s). But the person who called me wanted to say HI, ask me what are you doing? How're you feeling? Nothing important at all.

Instead of getting pissed, I smiled, and went to the loo to pee. Same concept, different approach.

Flush. Nothing happened. No water.

Tried to check my mail, no connection.

I love it.

And now I think I wanna go back to bed and take another 3 of the wonder pills. I know my kidneys will hate me for today.

But that's life. You either love it or hate it. But you have no choice but to do it. When you realise everything is dying, it puts a whole new meaning to the word "living". You could either value life more, or you could say, fook it, it's dying anyway.