Accident of the Mind or issit a Psychological Hazard

Yesterday was the worst hit. I've been depressed for no real reason lately. So I was hoping to forget. I'm still trying. My phone rang very late last night.

A familiar voice asking me out. Well that's normal. A caring friend knows I'm not being myself lately. How caring.

What's unfamiliar about the call is that the liberal use of the word "date". I mean I think I'm open to anything and everything, which means I'm liberal to a certain degree, but this?

Ok. So maybe I misheard things. So in the midst of a very late dinner, somewhere noisy...

A: We have to talk.

B: We're talking, right?

A: Not like this.

B: What about?

A:I know what I am going to tell you right now, will change our friendship forever. After tonight, you may like me even more, or maybe you'll hate me and refuse to talk to me anymore. That's the risk that I'm willing to take. I just can't go on and pretend there's nothing there. Because there are things that has been going on in my mind.

B: (Suspiciously nodding.)

A:Many things crushing me at one.

B: (Raises eyebrow.)

A:So now that the moment has come, I dont know what to say. I mean I know what I want to say but I don't know the best possible way to say this without scaring you away. You dont have to say anything, just listen.

B: (Keeping it cool though palms are sweating profusely.)

A: So here goes...

B: (Hands frantically reaching for wallet, in case have the need to pay the bill and run. Run fast and never look back.)

A: I like you alot. I like you in that way. I know it's not mutual. Mutual as in I'm feeling it, but you're not.

B: (Try to breathe out slowly, but let out a very audible sigh of relief.)

A: So now you know.

B: Yes. Now I know. I didn't expect that. Ah... Errr... Gee.. I thought you wanted to borrow some money.



The moral of the story.

No matter how you prepare yourself mentally, you'll never anticipate the real outcome of a projected situation.


So here's when I imagined myself in the conty and pressing the "S" but while announcing that we'll be back after this song, Accidentally in Love by the Counting Crows



So she said what's the problem baby

What's the problem I don't know

Well maybe I'm in love (love)

Think about it every timeI think about it

Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this

Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)

Makes me wanna turn around and face me

but I don't know nothing 'bout love



Come on, come on

Turn a little faster

Come on, come on

The world will follow after

Come on, come on

Cause everybody's after love



So I said I'm a snowball running

Running down into the spring that's coming all this love

Melting under blue skies

Belting out sunlight

Shimmering love



Well baby I surrender

To the strawberry ice cream

Never ever end of all this love

Well I didn't mean to do it

But there's no escaping your love



These lines of lightning

Mean we're never alone,

Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on

Move a little closer

Come on, Come on

I want to hear you whisper



Come on, Come on

Settle down inside my love



Come on, come on

Jump a little higher

Come on, come on

If you feel a little lighter

Come on, come on

We were once

Upon a time in love



We're accidentally in love Accidentally in love (x7)



Accidentally

I'm In Love,

I'm in Love,

I'm in Love,

I'm in Love,

I'm in Love,

I'm in Love,

Accidentally (X 2)



Come on, come on

Spin a little tighter

Come on, come on

And the world's a little brighter

Come on, come on

Just get yourself inside her love ...

I'm in love

Note to self:

Abang Chik is getting married today.

How I wish I could be there to see him off.

But that's going to happen in KL today.

He'll be back in SP on July 28. I make such a best friend, huh? He's getting married and here I am in Langkawi.

Like wow! 13 years, many many memories, some good and some bad, mostly bad at the time, but looking back, I'll always remember him as the kid, who shat in his pants, in the middle of the mangrove swamp, that morning, 13 years back.

Selamat Pengantin Baru, Abang Chik.



You're the brother I never had. I know I'll cry on your wedding, even if I'm not there.