Alive but...

I received a text message earlier... A disturbing one...

But before I go into the text message, lemme tell you what happened about an hour before my phone goes off beeping incoming message...

I showered (as usual...
I tend to get emotional in the bathroom, So it was a long bath) and thought to myself, a big mug of coffee with something extra (dont ask!) might do me good.

But then I realised I'm out of creamer...

So I went out and drove to the shop...
That's the time when my phone goes off amidst the blaring speaker playing david Ushers' Black Black Heart and the air was thick with ciggy smoke.

It reads:
U, I just broke up. I really need some one to talk to. I think I'm going to hurt myself.

Poor soul.

Lemme rephrase that... Damn stupid bastard, I TOLD U SO...

As if I dont have my own problems to think about, believe me... I have enough. More than I can handle.

There...
So I threw my phone inside the car, went out and bought my creamer and I also bought summore coffee, although I had bought a pack recently, but it's just so annoying to feel like having coffee with creamer and lots of sugar and suddenly realising that you're out of either sugar, or coffee or creamer.

Anyway after buying the creamer, I got into my car, started the engine and drove.

I was lost in my train of thoughts when I realised... I was already at the dark, dark road behind the airport.

Scary.

I didn't even remember driving that far.
So I turned around and drove back to Kuah. Here's the best part. I remembered driving home and reaching Kuah. But then I realised I passed the junction to my house and suddenly I'm at the Jetty Point!

Twice in one night.

So anyway, the moral behind this story is that... There is no moral in life... It's just people trying to fit into what most people think is right.

And for some people, they just dont care. They dont care what they say or do is hurting other people in a bad bad way.

Wounded skin dries up, heals, maybe leaving a scar.
And you'd ask me... "Do I look like I care?"

The truth is, you did look like you cared, but you didn't care at all.
I fell for it.
Thank you.
Now I know.

As our starsign said- the most unlikely union... One of you might just go out to the store and never come back...

One of these days, you'll get back what you gave.

Do I look like I care?