Get Up Get Out Do Something... How Will You Make It If You Never Even Try...

A few days back... I got this urge... This urge to do something. To create something. To do something worthwhile. You know...

When your desires are fulfilled, when you have someone who you know will think of you when you're not together with him... Or her... You start doing things to yourself (not THAT thing!!!)

Anyway, I took up my unfinished project. I've been putting this off since years back.

I called up Mr. Lee and asked him to help to move the big ol' aquarium. Dug up some old sand and rocks that I have lying around the house and put together a masterpiece!

OK... After spending some money (Black/Blue plastic background RM21, Lights and Reflector RM50, Chicken Wire- RM10- Not used in this project- DUH!) Here's the result...

Water started to clear after a few days. Put in the remaining 2 of 4 skunk loach (rm1.50 a piece) inside, 1 Golden Chinese Algae Eater (RM2.50) just to start off the biological-chemical thingy inside the system. Kayu-kayan wa usung dari SP tu beb... Umah lama (sob sob sob... sedey aaaa tingat umah lama aku, tempat wa membesar...)

Another view of the same. Still Not enough plants... So I went to Kampung Padang Wahid and collected some more. Got home with a bunch of nice plants... Cendol Plant, 2 kinds of the other Utrics, Banana Plant and some more sand.

Note to self: Next time becareful, no, be very careful when snapping pix infront of reflective surfaces, especially when you're working in the nude... Muahaha...


Water got a wee bit (no, that's an understatement) cloudy... It'll turn back to normal (hopefully) soon... Bangga siot bila buat kerja hasil leh tengok... Am planning to add some more plants, mebbe some water lily. Wanna keep small2 ikan in here... 2-3" maximum length. Ala, ikan kaler-maler tu le.


Wajah penuh kepuasan after gazing cam orang gila depan akuarium... Berbinau my mata as the lampu so terang one... Lepas ni nak tengok ikan kena pakai spek mata lalat...



BTW- No, I didn't cut my hair... It's all there, I ikat je kat belakang...



This year I wanna keep my hair kasi panjang balik... Nak kembalikan imej gigolo cam dolu2.



Ya ya... Anyway, the moral of the story, if you find yourself bored at anytime, that means you're not doing enough in your life... Waaaa....



Weight loss program hit a plateau (betul ke idak ejaan nye ni ye?) Stuck at XX kilos. Target to hit 68kgs by July, kalo tak menjadik... Haku akan jadik kan jugak! Lepas ni nak beli kasut lari (running shoes la ngok!) nak start jogging. Nak kena turun lagi XX kilos... Adei...

Ni gambo akuarium pakcik yang airnya dah nak clear... at least 2 hari baru clear.... x sabo nak membeli ikang nak boh lam ni....

Ada Apa Dengan Ikon Bahagian Kedua

Madonna the Conty Dominatrix.

The long shiny thingy is not something to "poke" someones' orifice with.

It's a water flask.

The Spactic Four

Lisham Dahmer strangling a willing victim 1.

Lisham Dahmer learns that Nani enjoys Bondage.

Nani dah insaf..

Tebal siot make-up ala2 bak kata Rosyam Nor... "tepung gomak"

Pleasure Cruise dalam Van RTM

"Adibah Nor risau tak dapat bayaran show"

I know it's wrong to do this... But WTH... Wakakaka... Huargh... Huargh...

(Gelak sampai tergolek)

Life's like a TV show half-way through the anteanna's broken...

Being alone sucks.

Being together with someone one loves is wonderful. Sometime, that sucks too.

Unhappy alone.

Unhappy together.

It's like when one yearns about commitment and freedom at the same time. Nothing comprimised. That's confusing. The moon is indeed very confusing. Like the ebb and flow of the tide. Predictable. Constantly changing.

Life is like a thread. A tangled one.

You start at one end towards the other end. That's our very own personal journey. No one can live on one behalf.

Sometimes you can just pack your bag and create some make belief character for yourself.

How many times can one do that before one loses track of what's real and what's not?

Maybe the first human ancestor (scientifically speaking) developed language not to communicate, but to complain about stuff.

I am not complaining. This is not about me.

This is about what happens when you sit down at night alone after a hard day at work and you compare yourself with who you were 5 years ago... 10 years ago... to who you are now and who you could have been.

Then you set your goals for the next 5 years or even 10 years from now.

Then you realise, having everything meticulously planned out leaves out the unexpected fun in living.

It's hard to speak of something without really saying what it is...

I'm almost there.

jes for laughs

Oooo... Who's that sexy lil' thing in black???

Wow! Will Smith (in drag) and in Langkawi... Kwang kwang kwang...

No lah... It's just Madonna J. hahahaha... Mati la kena santau kat opis nanti...

Ikon Shoot and Ronda-Ronda Satu Pulau Day...

Waaa... Pakcik kena pilih untuk mewakili opis pakcik untuk ditampilkan, dishowcasekan dan difofularkan dalam IKON (siot je...) Long story short.. Gambo2...

Pakcik setelah di"comelkan" oleh Boss pakcik...

Pakcik ngan Ms. Nurul Razihan Radzi (pose ala2 yantie... Siapa yantie? yantie dari indo dong~ Hanya pakcik je yang kenal yantie tu)...

Pakcik ngan Uncle Haji Said

(If the technicians buat band... it'll be named... Meet Uncle Said... La la la la.. hari2 kerja...)

Pakcik dengan (regardless of her size... Kejam siot statement!) Baby (seriously... Her name is Baby)

Pakcik ngan Mr. Sharol "Jolie" (Clue- See the lips)

Pakcik ngan Madonna J. (ala2 Rosario Dawson pun ada... ala2 ahli paperdolls pun ada sket...)

Pakcik (pose cak-cak ngan niat jahat) ngan Ms. Nani "Molly"

Pakcik kat Kutub Utara (posing ala2 Natalie Imbruglia aka. pose nak terkucil)

Pakcik atas cable car. Kononnya model SKII...

Durian Night Fever...

Hehehe... Ok... Nuff bout dat.... It's been a while since I did this...

Horoscope time...

"You should be feeling especially passionate today, dear Cancer, so don't be surprised if you can't get sex and romance off your mind. "

"If you're currently involved, schedule an intimate evening alone with your lover. "

"If you aren't involved, don't be surprised if you pull someone new and exciting under your spell! Your passions also could spill over into other departments of your life as well, including creative and intellectual interests. "

"Make the most of it all! "



Errrr... Right... Let's compare notes with my other half punya plaks....

"Business and money matters may seem to be going too well to be true, dear Gemini. "

"Success and good fortune in these departments are definitely indicated for you today! "

"If you've been trying for a break in a creative or artistic field, it may finally manifest. "

"The present looks profitable and the future bright. "

"In the evening: Celebrate by scheduling a romantic encounter with a lover. "

"You should find it especially gratifying at this time! "


Horoscope is soooo scary especially when you're in habit of reading back0dated ones... Ngeh ngeh ngeh...

Oo... It's time...

Just when everything's in order and good, things fall apart.

Just when life should be resolving, I'm back at the beginning, And it comes back to the heart ...I'm not really sad ... I'm not running, I'm looking ... Did I tell you I've saved all your letters and cards ...

There's just nothing left for me to do here but unhook the stars ...

Do you remember when I told you all that I could and it seemed like too much ...

Well I was living your life hoping you'd never fall ... If I held on tight enough ...

And letting go now is like a passport to anywhere ...

With time on my hands I can make a new start ...

I just didn't want to stay here and unhook the stars

I just didn't want to stay here and unhook the stars

Don't worry for me it's just I'm inspired

Waiting in the wings made me drunk with possibility

It rivals my memories ...

Not Exactly a Model Material...

That night. alone at Aseania.

I took out my camera and snapped away.

Not bad for a 30-year old guy, rite?

Riiiiiiitttttttteeeee....

Malaysia Water Festival 2008 Has Ended... Phew!

Pix of Crazy People.

Everybody's gone gaga because of too much sun...

Brain over-heated...

Having your favorite shades imprinted on your face is no fun...

I OD-ed on Vitamin D and Sunscreen-Deficiency Syndrom.

Made a Few "New Friends" Ngeee...

My Baby is on silent Mode...

Slept Alone at Aseania... Hot Shower... A/C on lowest setting... Bliss!

Mr. Fairuz (Suara Pecah!), Ms. Sufina (nak "RELAI" katanya), Ms/Mdm/Ms Madonna "Jackson" John (kena gi X-RAY pinggang), Myself (Itam, suara pecah, akit lutut, sun-burned etc) all affected.

Hmmm... Hmmm... Hmmm...

What to say? So many things... But then again... Nobody's really reading this blog. How wrong... I learned today that some one is actually been following this blog... That, my friends make me think... I better becareful about what I type in here...

Anyway... Today was fun... I started work with my voice sounding like Macy Gray, then Louie Armstrong, then Itik Nila then Ramli Sarip and Macy Gray again... Sora takdak beb... Aiseh... Baca promo waterfest pun sora ala2 budak AF. Bengong tol... Dah la bulan ni aku kopak...

Tomolo got function summore... National Waterfest 2008. Guess who will be the MC for the Pantai Games? Saper lagi... Moi la! Mati la...

Abes keja, meeting plaks... I'm sad to say that my programs (Hollywood and Hit It Live) will no longer be aired starting this week. I will propose some other program (but it will take time to create a program and I dont really feel like creating anything at the moment, lantak la). Balik umah je terus londeh abis dengan niat suci murni nak membadak barang sejam dua... Last-last baru je tgh layan... Henpon munyik...

Cilakak siot... Wa kena april fool melalui telefon... My baby called soh bukak pintu.. katanya dia ada depan pintu... Nak kena la tu....

Anyway... I finished a big bottle of Ubat Batuk cap Kelapa Laut Afrika in one gulp.. I expected to get high and cure my throat... But nothing happened...

Then I went out and bought some asam jawa... Then I pikiaq to myself... Rajin sangatkah aku ini mau memerah dan membancuh air asam jawa ini? Hehehe... I singgah kedai and bought 5 bottles of tamarind juice. Esok jenuh diarrhea haku...

Then went back home la...

What happened just now inspired me to write this...

My relationship with that certain somebody is like Durian...

No... Not that it's stinky and illegal on planes and in hotels.

Durian... Not the siamese durian but the old fashioned traditional Malay Durian...

My relationship is like durian...

It's thorny and prickly... Hard to handle. Painful.

But inside it's nice... Considering the fact that durian is seasonal... But it's worth the wait...

Hehehe...

Only people who like durian will understand what's the fuss about durian...

Too much of durian will make you sick. No durian (if you're a durian fanatic) will make you go "Hmmm... When's durian season la... Teringin nak makan durian..."

OK. Tonight is durian season and I gorged myself on durian just now... Kah kah kah... Tajuk lagu yang "diubah sesuai sesuka hati mak bapak aku"...

Whitney Houston: All the durian that I Need/ I'm Your Durian Tonight/ I Will Always Love Durian/ Queen of the Durian/ Heartbreak Durian/ Could I have this Durian Forever?/ It's Not Right but it's Durian.

Madonna: Beautiful Durian/ Ray of Durian/ Durian to Remember/ Live to Durian/ Take a Durian/ Like a Durian/ La Isla Durian/ Substitute for Durian/ Express Your Durian/ Why's It So Hard to Durian/ Inside of My Durian/ This Used to be My Durian/ He's a Durian/ I'm Going Durian/ Durian is Surprisingly Good for You/ Another Durian, Another Hall/ Durian Fits Heaven

Roxette: (I could Never) Give Durian Up/ Dressed for Durian/ Sweet Durian, Sad Durian/ How Do You Durian?/ Durian-ride/ Durian Street/ You Don't Understand Durian/ I don't wanna get Durian/ Spending my Durian/ Fading like a Durian...

Sinead O'connor: Nothing Compares to Durian/ I am stretched on your Durian/ I Feel so Durian/ A Perfect Durian/ The Last day of Our Durian/ Three Durians/ Fire on Durian/ Black Boys on Durian/ Put Your Hands on my Durian

Obses bebeno pakcik ngan durian ni ek?

Haku dah gila dah... Baik aku tido... Sok pagi2 buta nak kena ada kat Pantai Chenang dah... Mati haku kalo tak jaga/ lambat jaga....

My baby bau busuk tapi comel...

q(*o*)p

Ngeee...

Busy Day... Got Plans to Get Busier... Voice Almost Gone... More Iced Water... More Ciggies... Please...

Me: Trying out the most expensive baju that I've bought with my own money in years...

A stageful of rich kids...

No matter what people say, I AM NOT STARING AT HER BOOBIES (tho they are nice boobies)!

Another one. Why is it when the ladies wear a low-cut dress gravity effects the eyes of the guy talking to them?

Bad la u guys... Actually I was helping this dear lady from Bolivia. Her camera got stuck when she wanted to snap my photo (reasons, UNKNOWN)

I'm Sharing Something Here...

Few painful moments in life compare to the heartbreak of discovering that we have been betrayed by the ones we love. And sometimes how we find out is the worst part of the discovery.

If love is an art, then so is the practice of finding devious ways to strike back at those who have betrayed us in love.

More simply, fear not the vengeful lover, a man's worst enemy is himself.

Very Much Needed: Some Pleasant Distraction.

Have you ever feel that you're losing grip of everything?

Feels like life is a slippery eel in a tub of soap water, trashing about while you're trying to hold it (for what ever reason, there is).

It's like baking a cake, you stir hard, you put all the best ingredient at the right measurement, then you take your chances in the oven. Sometimes the cake comes out superb, sometimes...


My baby's leaving me.

If that's true, then that's why I love my baby in the first place. A free spirit. Unaffected by outside influences. Unpredictable.

Life's never boring with my baby. If it's true.

If it's just a joke, it's gone too far... But I'll take that as a pleasant distraction as right now, my life is somewhat like this ____________________________________________________

Such a straight line.

Like calm weather before a storm.

I hope there's double rainbow on the sky when this ends.

I'm yearning to do something new, but too lazy to venture outside my comfort zone. This is bad.

Pix: Damn Huge Cicak (Tokay Gecko) Invaded My House A Few Nights Back.

This big-ass cicak is nippy... Seriously, never saw a cicak so prone to biting like this one. It's like a bulldog in cicak disguise. Siao... It barks like a puppy. It shits a motherload of shit the size of almonds... It's bluish gray with white and orange spots.

I'm Broke and a Little bit Peeved but I'm Happy... I Think.

I went back to my hometown, I brought back my mom, my sister and niece and nephew to Langkawi.

I'm broke. I did charity in SP. I'm broke. I was behaving like a good boy in SP. I'm broke. I dono la what happened (car repair exceeded my budget, not good in Maths... Never was...) I'm fookin' broke!

Anyway, I've endured a total house make-over (sighs) and raids on my tabung (sighs)... Took them for a ride on the Langkawi Cable Car... Got Pix... Got Vids (vids coming soon... Can't post em here now becos my mom will kill me if I do... Wait until She's back in SP lo...)

Me (keeping my cool walaupun dalam hati... Gayat siot!!!!)

Me on the suspension bridge... (still panicking becos later kena naik cable car to go down)

Me and my mom (dua-dua muka pucat... Hehehe...)

Rombongan Mak Cik Yah (from left to right... Nephew-Solihin, Niece-Shajarodtuddur, My Sis-Zuraidah, My Mom)

Today kena kerja plaks, lepas tu nak balik SP... Stay 2-3 hari...

Kopak... Camana nak buat lo? Nak mintak kat Abah, harus kena piat tinga (walaupun tak piat tinga... Malu wooo... dah umo 30 mintak duit kat abah... Mana nak letak muka?)

Sapa2 yang baca blog ni... Kalo nak buat donation... Sila mesej untuk account number... XXX after donation is optional... Kah kah kah... Yo-o-o la tu...

All the Mistakes I've Done... I'm Only Being Human

I've been here and unhappy, I've been there, I was unhappy too, so I moved.

I was happy here for a while, then I was unhappy again. So I decided to go back, to see if I could be happy there. I didn't find what I'm looking for. Then I decided to sit myself somewhere I'd feel safe, taking time to think. What am I looking for. I don't know.

So I continued looking. Here, there, everywhere. What I've found, I thought was the thing that I've been looking for. That was what I believed before I changed my mind. I'm still searching for my happiness.

Aren't we all?

Another Day... could've Been Better doh...

I'm abit annoyed with my life. The End.

Been Busy... So Many Things to Say... No Time to Write...

The 12th General Election was a nightmare during office hours...

8 March 2008 (Morning)

I woke up feeling refreshed at 8, left to work at 11, worked from 12pm-3pm.

Was sabotaged big time when during my working time the computer and printer was not working. Damn! Then went back but didn't sleep as I kena kerija lagi at 3 in the morning...

9 March 2008 (12.01 Midnight)

I listened to Ms. Lynn and Ms. Leos' session... They were cool. So I kena buat something hotter than what they did la...

2.15am
I arrived at the office.. Lepaking and showing off Mr. Lembu (my bantal bucuk at the office...)

06.05am
The show ended. It was hot... Had a great time with Mr. PKZ. Then we had breakfast with Ms. B(oss). it was sunday so it was supposed to be my off day. When I reached home, it was almost 8 in the morning (that's 24hrs without sleep for me)...

08.00 am
Because of it was a sunday and I was not supposed to work, I layan my DVDs la...

12.34pm
Was about to tarik selimut when the phone rang and Mr. Sugu called asking me to ganti someone at 3pm... Siao!

3pm
In my heart I was singing... La la la la.. Hari-hari kerja la...

7pm++
Reached home, parked my car then the phone rang... Ms CT Hanim and Ms. Ina Gomok ajak makan pizza... Since they ajak, they belanja... Pix...

Ms. Ina having breakfast for dinner... That's a Jumbo Sausage at Pizza Ria... It's big, thick and juicy (for a sausage). I always ordered this for breakfast. It's nice... But some how when she ordered that... It looked kinda sorta sexually-suggestive... Muahaha...

TAMAT!

11 march 2008.

10++pm

Had a guest at home... Watched DVD together, but cannot pay attention much to the guest nor the DVD, akit gigi siot! Last resort... Halau the guest and locked myself dalam toilet (I dont know why i locked myself in the toilet... I'm living alone... No point to lock the toilet... Duh~).

Smoke like mad, cannot tahan liao...

Someone said, toothache is even more painful than giving birth... i tak tau... Tak pernah give birth, no plans to do it... Physically not possible to do it... Muahaha... tapi I tau sakit gigi sakit hamat! Then.... Tada!

The cause of my pain these past few years... It would've set me back RM240 just to have some chick with a kinky chair to poke me with some needle, slice a bit of my gum and pluck it out...

I was in pain at that time, so the dentist would've said- No cannot cabut the gigi when sakit...

Fook it! I mean, why should I pull out my tooth when I'm not in pain??? I swallowed 2 pain-killer pills and some of "my secret recipe" and grabbed a pair of rusty pliers and pull it out ala2 the scene in Wild Thing.

I'm dumb-founded how something so small can cause so much pain...

Earlier today I met with an old friend... Not quite... But anyway... We chatted kat parking bawah rumah I.

He made me think about two things...

He said, it is cheaper on the long run to pay for sex rather than to maintain a spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend... Is that true?

I think, it doesn't matter what I think... Duh~

He also said, one will not be a homosexual when one have sex with a person from the same sex if there's money involved... Is that true?

Gasps, chokes, clears throat... I can't help myself but but to think-Is that an invitation?

I dono... But I remember a song by Meja... It's all about the money... It's all about the dum dum da di dum dum...

I'm going to bed... Night night world...

P/S: I didn't get the old restaurant on top of Gunung Raya (yet!). Some rich dude rented the whole area from LADA. But it's OK. Somehow something inside of my perfectly shaped head keeps on saying "It's just a delay... Not a denial... Be patient..." over and over again.

Remember what happened between My Baby and I? It's a case of "If you wish for something often enough, that thing will happen (so becareful what you wish for!!!)"

I'll be going out of this island very very soon... My court case's on the 18th, Larson's getting married (sighs) on the 15th. Most probably I'll be sending my car on the 15th, going back on the 16th. Duit lagi... Adusss...

In case some of the readers (I know there are quite a few text voyeours out there reading this) might have noticed... My posting is not as a personal as it used to be... Good... Because starting from now on... What happened behind closed door will remain behind closed door (even if the tingkap is open at that time...)

Muahaha... what to do? I lead and interesting life or so I like to think....

Fear factor

That's my dinner tonight. Fish and chips (changed the chips or fries to mashed potatoes as fries are oily and oil adds useless callories and fat to my diet tho).

It's not going to stay long inside my tummy as I am going to throw up shortly after eating it (puke break!)

And puke I did. Green, red, and yellow. Just Like traffic light.

RM9.90 for something to make me throw up.

Should've used my fingers to induce vomiting instead.

We all got to face our fears some time.

Anyway, I'm happy.

p/s: I have a pix of my puke inside the toilet bowl... But I'm too classy to post such classless pix.