Looking for Something Real... In My Nightmare

Bored to death. Frustrated. Mostly Bored. Too much work. Too little motivation to do any of it. Not in the mood to clean the house. Not in the mood to meet someone new. Broke. Tired.

So melancholic. So polemic (whatever that means)...

Looking for Something Real

(Arousal is not intended with this partial nudity)

I found one.

I'm in love.

True to my horoscope, once this stupid crab finds someone or someones' toe that he likes, he'll hold on to him or her, even if it means losing a pair of claws or two.

If love is blind and falling in ove means being vulnerable, then I am, both blind and vulnerable at the moment. But only for that one person.

It's funny how I spent the day (more like two days of my off day) doing nothing. I was so depressed. I was mentally preparing for the worst that can happen between me and my baby.

I try to recall what really happened that day. Then I realised, all the pain that me and my baby were feeling at THAT particular moment doesn't mean anything.

Then I went out for a drink with Mr. Lee. It's been months since we last went out for a drink. So out we went to Saloma Cafe in Dataran Lang. Suprisingly, I was not hungry at all. So I ordered my drink(s) (dry season, drink more water and juices), and we chatted away.

Just two attached guys, talking, coping with problems, comparing notes (this one is not true lah!). We had a great time. Just to see an old friend and chatting like we used too. It seems that we're both been very busy lately. So much to chat about.

Then when I turned around (my crab senses was tingling all over, no shit!) I saw my baby driving pass. Once, twice. So I called my baby and suprisingly my baby answered my call. So, talk about turning a frown upside down (or issit the other way around? Not so expert when it comes to idioms anyway)...

Now, I think, what I've learned for these past few hectic days of my life is that. Everybody have their own personal definition of love. One maybe lucky in love while the other may not be so lucky.

So I'll settle down with this love, or what ever it really is with my baby.

For better or worst.

I spent the day infront of the computer learning new skill on Photoshop... The result...

In My Nightmare...